Life&Death He&She
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“Here is the test to find whether your mission on earth is finished.
If you’re alive, it isn’t.” – Richard Bach –
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Robby Cosenza’s been an amazing drummer and an even more amazing friend for several years now. He’s spent a majority of that time touring with These United States, which has brought us joy, glories, and stories to no end. But I’m happy he’s gonna be doing something else now – or, better to say, something he’s been up to all along – because it’ll be good for the wider world to know him not only as a drummer and a friend, but a great songwriter and artist in his own right.
I’ve been thinking a lot about his song “Let the Countdown Count Me” this week. (Hit play on that video link… now!) It’s beautiful, number one. It elegantly describes both change and acceptance, which I always love. And it speaks to me even more personally, this Very Good Friday, because my childhood heroine and partner-in-crime Grandma Bonnie passed away a couple weeks ago. I don’t pretend to know what all of the song is about – yet another reason I love it – but I think it resonates deeply because it’s so… wide open? In this order: honest, naked, buried, determined, alive, zen, seeking, surrendered, ultimately open-hearted. And that is surgery, accomplishing a narrative that sweeping in so few words and sounds.
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Let the Countdown Count Me
It’s true – I do
Not interact like I used to.
See they changed me
Now I do what they say.
I’ve tried to find a kind of my kind
And I feel so stripped – where is my ship?
Underground. Or undersea.
Let the countdown count me.
To survive, blend in.
Pizza and bad skin.
Family, women, hell, and heaven.
I got stuff in place – mustache, my face,
Boots on my feet.
Will the countdown still count me?
Count me, please.
Count me, please.
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Grandma Bonnie loved Robby. And Tom, and Justin, and all the other tricksters that passed through her beautiful home on the farm in the woods. She was a fine upstanding member of the community, but she loved a good rascal around (when I was a kid, she affectionately nicknamed me “shit-head”). She forgave us immediately, the night he and I pensively drank, and then politely disagreed, and then restrainedly yelled, and then violently wrestled on her wooden kitchen floor by the china cabinet at 3 a.m.
Grandma always knew how to keep things in perspective – life, death, dreams, journeys, struggle, loss, change. I don’t pretend to have any idea what kind of gentleman or shit-head or savior or plain old human being Steve Jobs was, but I love this particular thought of his: “Remembering you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.” (Hit re-play on that video link… now!) Count me in, Bob!
– Jesse